hate die you.
hmmmmm. firstly i would like to warn whuever tht's reading this post tht, this is a post of rants n complains. if you dun wanna read, dun read!

okay. today i din go sku again. ask me why? no, no why. i just dun feel like going thats all. sick? yes, probably one of the minor reason why. as days pass, i get even more sad every once i see you.

today, a particular faggot ruinned my day, when it's alrdy bad enuff.

it's via sms. so i shall paste the pic of the sms down. dun judge me if you duno the situation well. this guy's really a fcked up fag. i seriously had enuff of him and his bullshits. i've tolerate enuff, and this ain't the first time im complaining bout him and his outrageous actions. and if you were to ask me ignore him or just avoid, you say say easy la. you knw this guy's one hell of a stalker? hope someday someone will just knock some fcking sense into him and wake his idea. quit stalking me, you fag! i fucking hate die you !

pics quite small eh.. if can't see, click on it...



obviously a lie. fact is, i din even go sku. i fcking hate him la, so irritating can? bth! { the line which i wrote "my reply" is wad i replied. altho it's stated there, "FROM" him, basically cos i shifted the msg from sent item to inbox, thts why it appeared as tht. }

den he said, he saw my clique at the hall but din see me. where i go.
i replied, im with another guy clique.


imba. (Y)


dunnid ask me which guy i talking about, i like crapping. and i dun mean to offend those 2x years old ppl whu're still schooling in ite de. just tht this guy is realli getting on my nerves and he's dam cocky and likes to show off la. i tink he 24 liao ah, still so immature lor. i like whuu he oso wann chup, he oso not my who?! ridiculous!


the smudged part, if you wan know, call me up personally and ask.


same thing.

and i admit im not pretty nor nice. but at least i know i've a way better personality than you do. i dun look down on ppl like you always do. by attaining gpa 3.5 for sem1, issit veri bad to the extent you must kip suan me? fcked up lor. 3.5 is gud enuff, im happy, and tht's enuff. whu cares bout wad you tink? _l_ duno kena buang hw manii times, yet still so haolian. if you're really tht great, ppl will be queueing up for you! and seriously i tink you shd look yourself in the mirror. just look before trying to speak ill-ly of me. im sorry if the mirror cracks due to your ugly personality. (=

i know it seems to be me who started being guailan and caused the prob right? but you know how much i hate tht irritating pest? he's so dam irritating, always stalking me at sku. i hate it. i seriously do. who likes being stalked by some mysterious weirdo whu wouldn't give up stalking no matter how mani times you scold him off? i'd enuff of being a nice person towards you. and i dun care even if you reads my blog. ^_^ i just LOVE COMPLAINING. WAD CAN YOU DO BOUT IT. NOTHING~

just cos you tink you're great, doesn't mean you really are. you tink you can have control over my life? well, sad to say, you'll NEVER have the chance to. and now i sound dam arrogant, hah! not tht i wanted to, im left wit no other choice. i've to be proud and harsh to deal wit this kind of ppl. it's been months le! and i still haven get rid of him. super pissed by his actions la! grrr!

pft. i go relac le. done ranting on my blog le. tainted le lah, got his name. _l_

It's really time to wake up.
hiiiiiiii.

today school sucked. i realise i've been saying this for the 4536456415815 times alrdy. i'm giving up on school. i seriously am. losing hopes for this sem's modules. having zero interest in it, how am i to do well in this sem. class tests are coming up soon, gonna flunk all i guess. no hope alrdy.

aniway. went down yck today. supah happeh to have such nice frens y'knw! as in, they actually accompanied me down, waited for me, den went back tgt. super nice! thanks guys! THANKS BABI(jon), ABBA(hamster) & QUBA(boon)! LOL ! imba names (Y)

me? i ain't got any nicks! MWAHAHAHA, COS I AM TEH PRO !

yups, and the interview was dam shit la. i dun even knw wad i said, hah! cos i kept joking around. why so seriouz! ^_^


visit0r pass! gaahaha~~

okay le .. going watch tv. byeeee!

i'd enough. my patience has it's limit.
today's appointment last min cancelled. therefore carried forward to tmll. still considering whether shd i go anot.. will prolly have to depend on my mood tmll. and like whatever ok, im not worth your time, why should i care.

today my day's dam screwed up. whole day kept feeling dam pissed off, yet i can't show it. i've to swallow my anger and keep cool. but how long do you tink i can hold on? you wanna test my patience, you'll have to face the consequences. my patience has it's limit too, just like anyone else. think twice before trying to take advantage of my patience. i can be real nice and real mean at the same time. and, i'll proudly say this sentense, sooon enough, "i'd enough of you and your bullshits" ; my patience's running out..

i really can't take it anymore.

i seriously need to relax. really.

99's, i don't freakin' care afterall.
hiiiiii. i'm living a very very boring life. wad can make mah life more interesting. i wanna go out and have fun , whu's there to pei me ? like seriously la ? idk.

the only thing tht's been happening recently = shits. going to sku, dealing wit stress daily. i realli wonder how long more can i hold on. sometimes i just feel like breaking down , but i can't. i must be strong.. but there's also a limit to being strong .

ohwell , life is all about having fun . why should i even bother bout you? i just dun get it .. i realli dun get it. haix.


some epic phailed waveform.


another epic phailed waveform. seriously i hate cmn. wad crap can i get from reading shit waveforms that causes headache due to analysing it for too long.


picture says it.


99's i don't care. (= and why should i bother afterall . even if i wan to , i'll be made a mockery of by you .

and freakin fcked up k , tml's lessons = hell long hours. and i hafta travel all the way to freaking yck after school to deal wit some fucked up shit at hq. why the fck am i even involved in it ? i dun freaking get it ok ! waste of my time, altho i've abundant time but tht's obviously not my way of spending it. and it's been some time now since tht shit hpned , why do you still bring it up . super spoil mood k ! fck life !

what's more to life , show me , just freakin show me !?

goodbye,mylove . 잘가요 내사랑 .
sorry , but , i still love you so . i really do .

The day i stopped breathing.
i'm sorry for letting you down... i really am sorry.

hmm.. to those ppl whu tags my board, my replies to you will be above the board. occasionally i'll reply in the box itself too. once again, thanks for tagging and viewing. lol!

im sure you can tell tht this post is oso made for the sake of updating only. obviously i've nothing to update, like always.

oh, and to those who're taking o's, ALL THE BEST ! ♥

okay. now.. jus wanna thanks a few particular frens of mine whu's been by my side when im down. you know whu you are. and you know im very grateful for all the things you all've done for me. ♥


random. cos im bored.


reflection.


uh.. idk. from my view, this looks tall.


[sarcasm] lastly. this is my new fren, snailey. lol! he's been a veri great fren whu i've known for less than 5hours. he stayed by my side when im down & alone, he jus dun wanna get away from me no matter how many times i asked him to get lost. i'll treasure the frenship between us. hope we meet again someday. [/sarcasm]

tyvm to tht someone whu's been so nice to me.


p.s: i'm dying.

'Cause i'm livin' in a dream and i don't wanna wake up.
hiiiiii.. i've nothing to update boutttt.

jus wanna say thanks to those whuu cared for me.. and oso to those whuu doesn't give a dam bout me, thanks.. like seriously, thanks alot.

aiyah.. but seriously.. i've nothing to blog abt today la.. fck tht..

knnnzxzx. my attitude is getting worser & worser as days passsssss... but my gf still loves me as much. right ewyna ho! you know wad? i miss you. HAHA. all the best and jiayous for yur o's ! & yur dayy is in 5 days time...! lai lai , letz count down laa ! after o's must go out and kisiao tgt hor! lol! I'LL BE WAITING...........

and, im super addicted to 2ne1's songs nao. kept replaying over n over. ala... must be ewyna la. influence me! hahaha~ okay la. shit sia, im updating for the sake of updating and im actualli typing craps.

aw.. and now im tinking whether shd i go sku tmll anot. sad to say, but i dun feel like going again. dun ask why, you know de! if you duno, den ask me. but i ain't gonna tell. lol, i sounded so whatever.

yes, AND... I DUN CARE WHAT YOU PEOPLE ARE SAYING BOUT ME... I REALLY DUN CARE... I.... REALLY.... DUNNNN..... or maybe i do.

okay la. zz, verii stressed by certain issues lately. i nid a break, whu wanna peii me out to relac? jio me please thanks. i'll be sibei happeh if you do & i'll love you to bits. {p.s: got terms & conditions one..}

Vulnerable.
MONDAY BLUES MONDAY BLUES MONDAY BLUES MONDAY BLUES
MONDAY BLUES MONDAY BLUES MONDAY BLUES MONDAY BLUES
MONDAY BLUES MONDAY BLUES MONDAY BLUES MONDAY BLUES
MONDAY BLUES MONDAY BLUES MONDAY BLUES MONDAY BLUES
MONDAY BLUES MONDAY BLUES MONDAY BLUES MONDAY BLUES
MONDAY BLUES MONDAY BLUES MONDAY BLUES MONDAY BLUES

knn hongkanz. i hate monday blues. i hate weekdays, i hate everyday, i hate you.

i need a life. i need to be happy. i need to sort out my life.

and fck, i dun care even if it's tuesday now. _l_


P.S : EWYNA HO MAH LUVLEY GAL, YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU. YOU KNOW, YOU KNOW. #19's OBVIOUSLY A BETTER DATE THAN 20. WHAT ELSE CAN I SAY? BUT I LOVE DIE YOU! TREASURE ME COS IM GOOD. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA. YOU CAN'T FIND ANY BETTER, CONFIRM. LOL!
19102009 23:59.

fuck you.
i've given up on everything. i've lost hope for everything. i'm no longer the me tht you know. i'm no longer the same as i used to be.

dun ask me why i've became sucha loser. cos, i'm a huge loser to begin with.

life ? tell me what's life.

just tell me what should i do now. i've wasted yet another month of my life, doing nothing but failures. all my efforts were for naught. why do i even wanna try? life is all about trying eh? hell no.

i see a trap, i stubbornly moved forward and stepped on tht trap and now i can't untangle that trap. foolishness. huge loser.

it's like a dead knot, where the only way you could solve is cut it apart.

easier said than done.

sad to say, im nothing but a loser.

rolling my dice, just to be with you. it's you, just you.
feeling super stressed up once again. how i wish someone could help me by telling me whats exactly going on in mah life. why is all this happening? haix...

heart feeling sour. im tired of all this.. hurts to see people living their life happily tgt. stay strong? haix...

haix... you all are asking me to give up like it's some sort of easy stuff. give up? easier said than done. teach me how to give up, will you? (=

if things can go smoothly... haix.. den i dun tink there's such thing called sadness anymore.

feeling stressed. upset. disappointments. and, what's going on? like seriously. just lemme know what's going on in my life, right now. i need an answer that i've spent few weeks searching for, but to no avail.. haix...

Hot N' Cold
just reached home not longgg.!

today's a super super weird day.. quite a screwed up day as well.

went school in the morning. wasn't feeling well, emotionally. and feeling weak physically. went out of class, not paying attention to lesson. thinking thru stuffs. and the next moment, i suddenly broke into tears. why? dun ask me. i duno as well.. it's just... so weird. just felt as though my heart's being torn apart. think i'll seriously nid to relax.. was super paiseh for me.. but glad not much ppl noticed. was super afraid ppl might disturb me, but im glad nobody did.

and i'll like to specially thanks mclyne my baobeii for being by my side to cheer me up, and of cos candy too! thanks alot. loves you both! and, thanks those whuu showed concern for me too.. but no worries, im okay yah.. thanks paw too for trying to cheer me on, altho i feel super paiseh cos you saw me crying at canteen. )= but i still feel super blessed to have frens like you all! ♥

okaay..


some super soft nice bread! supposingly to be my lunch for today.. but din have time to eat, so.. i shall leave it for tmll den! haa!

today lessons ended early.. like at 11+ turning 12. and.. everyone knows me, i dislike going home early as it'll be super boring. therefore i've some great frens whuu accompanied me in school to chat & slack after lessons time! especially my baobeii mac!♥ jiayou study and score well for your upcoming o's!

den.. after tht some went home. left wit 2 nubs. and and.. we decided to go vivo! i tell you, the trip there was POWER. we could've just taken straight bus down to vivo within 15mins. but we din. we went hort park to hike/walk/run/explore. LOL! and guess wad.. ended up we took like 3 HOURS TO REACH VIVO! LOL! imagine? walking upslope, downslope for 3 straight hours. sweat like madddd! leg macham jelly! super wobbly la. like, super tiring can... cos we were like.. anyhow here, there, duno which path to take, refer to gps, nub maps, observe insects, plants & squirrels, whatever. but we made it in the end. but was super fun la! laughed like crazy. thanks guys! (=


before going off. at sku's foyer slack! (=


like sweet sia they 2 ! hahahaaa!


you jump, i jump? step one romantic!


super tired! duno they supporting each other or putting weight on each other lor...

ahs! no more pics. if there's more, i'll edit this post and add on tmll.

upon reaching vivo, they jitao go find food! guess they must be starving after the 3 hours walk/hike/run. haha! somemore they din eat lunch before setting off for hort park. after eating went to watch "Imagine That" . dun ask me wad issit abt.. cos i dun realli know. lol! i wun say it's exactly tht nice la.. maybe cos i din realli watched. was practically dozing off thruout the movie. wad a waste of money, tsk! but was seriously super tired, to add on, the night before i oni slept for like 2hours! with tht 3hours stupid hike which drained almost all my energy away. can you imagine how tired was i den! but hey, why am i still not asleep yet. haha!

alrights... imma go off and get some rest soon.. hope tmll will be a better day for me without much worries nor sadness. hope i can be happy daily. make the impossible, possible. (=

it's you, just you.
sighs. today school was terrible. was too terrible for me. horrible.. i duno wad other words i could use to describe my day.

first thing in the morning, screwed up. dun ask me wad is screwed, aint telling.

MONDAY BLUES! MONDAY BLUES! MONDAY BLUES!

YES ! thts like how much i seriously hate mondays ! *sighs*

today did nothing, just purely slacking and a lil of cmn practical. like shit la, whole day just lie dead on the desk. ain't trying to sleep, just tht i'm not in the mood... so i guess lying down and avoiding ppl is still the best. emo? nay, i ain't emo. just some super personal probs bothering me. i hate tht feeling, the feeling of jealousy.

okay lah.. shan't say much. somethings are meant to be kept to myself, me alone. haa.. guess nobody will understand me.

during cmn, i din do the prac. cos.. i duno wad am i suppose to do. i seriously cant comprehend anything the cher said. like... sounds super foreign to me. so yah, fck care. just continue stoning away and lying down tinking of stuffs. and den, shits got to happen to me. when my mood is alrdy down enough, my fone died on me. fck it . this is super horrible. and nobody actually has a charger to lend. so yea... guess it was partly my mistake cos i forgot to bring my charger to sku.

and.. guess wad i did outta boredem during cmn prac ?


L.O.V.E

someone actually said im lame.. super sad la.. lame meh? =( sighx. i tot it was okay? but nah, guess it isn't anymore since ppl can say it's lame.. =(

i admit it's ugly.. but it's my efforts... went down down down the moment you said it's lame.. well, thanks alot for not appreciating it...

*LAOPA. TELL ME IT'S NICE OK!*

lol! okay la. super random. not nice den not nice lor. sua. like i care? tsk.

sometimes i realise, i've split personalities. i can be super nice and frenly for a moment, and the next moment? i flare up scolding everyone. pms? nah. it's just my split personalities and, mainly blame it on me being emotionally unstable recently.

i need a break. i wish to avoid you, but i just couldn't do it. every once i see you, i feel hurt. every once i see her, i felt a super heart-wrenching feeling. i hope i can be as strong, but i just couldn't. fck this life. -'-
do you know how much you meann to me? if only you knew how much i luv you..

fate? no. i dun believe in that fcking bullshit, so quit mentioning it to me, fags.

when i say it's time to let go, it's time to let go.
hi peeeeopleeee. im left wit lyk 2 more days to live before going to hell. *sighs*~

time flies eh ? but come to tink of it, i dun tink so again. been having wayyy too much worries recently, tht it's killing me.. i'll stop tinking, i'll stop tinking, and i'll stop tinking about it !

anyway. i feel super super blessed & happie to hav a super super super nice bestie aka my jie aka~ cheryl ~! who's been by my side this whole time cheering me on. (= thanks alottt ! loves her! ♥ miracles do happen eh? you believe, i believe, we believe.

minor probs wun hold me back. i'll still keep moving on. just an obstacle for me to overcome. all that is needed is hardwork.

aiyah, whatever wit tht emo post la.. anw, recently went out dinner wit my lovely family! hahaha. enjoyable day wit dem! super blessed to have such a great and lovely family. (= okok . i'll start by posting pics of food first. aiyah , as usual de lah me. food oso wann take pic, but whatever. thts my habit ! (= but the quality of the pics are kindof crappy, cos my fone's cam ain't good.


menu! lol! okay.. random..


prawn salad! yumyumyum.


fried yu-tiao. my younger bro's favourite. =D


kangkong ! yey! i like!


ugly fish! lol! fried grouper fish wit sweet & sour sauce.


steamed sea bass, oso one of my bro's fav! =D


braised sea cucumber wit mushrooms? my parents ate it. i dunlikeee ._.


wads this? likee..... shark's fin soup? haha!


cereal prawwwnnnns!


chicken in dark sauce...?


you know, i know... fried rice! haha!


some pork thingy.. spare ribs wit bbq sauce? eeeww.. ._.


beancurd! me like oso !


prawn wit.. i tink it's soya sauce. lol! it's nice!


sweet corn soup wit tiny pieces of crabmeat in it. nice!


um.. i forgot wad's this called. honeydew sago? LOL. but i knw it's super nice!


some crappy rubbish my bro did. ahs~ it looks.... so whatever.

okaaay! no more food liaos... im getting hungry! hahaha. okaay.. the following are random pics taken by me. cos im wayyy tooo boredd den......


tis iss meeeee! duh~ see my dark circles!! sorry but i've been slping late, lately. can't help it.


me doing ^_^


trying to act cute. LOL, omg. dark circles!


my bro: "HEY !"


my younger bro n elder bro. (=


my father plucking prawnn for my marmi & me! hehee, so nice right! (= me loves my papa! heeex! ♥


bro n me ! loves the cutecute him too ♥


hahax~ my bro gave a super spastic pose! but cute in a way! hehees! comparing who's eyes bigger =P


smileees~! (=

*i hate camera's flash ._.


GHOST. LOL! thanks to the amazing flash... (= anw, i looked as if i've short hair! ehehehe! (=

okaay... no more pics le... about time for me to go sleep alrdy..

i hope tmll will be a better day ! ♥

WHO WANT GO OUT WIT ME BEFORE MY HELL RE-OPENS !

7 DAYS TO HELL .........

feeling dam horrible now..

way beyond measure.

i need a break. i need to relax. i need to chill.

if only i'd never known you. life wouldn't suck as bad as it is right now.


- erase my existence, like how i'm about to erase yours. or maybe, my existence had always been zero to you. -

for i know, it's impossible.

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.