Concealed.
You told me there's no point telling you how i feel.

i always tot you wana know how i feel. now i finally know the truth. fact is you don't wana know. you told me there's no point in knowing.

you questioned me, "what's the point ?"

i told myself in my heart, "well actually... there's no point in knowing how i feel... cos... nobody cares. and i thought you're the special one who really cares bout me... am i wrong..? i duno anymore.."

you questioned me, "what i wants you to do inorder to change my thinking ?"

i told myself, " actually... you dun have to do anything. cos evrything lies wit me. evrything's my fault. i've no rights to do anything."


now my question is, do i still have the rights to feel sad? am i allowed to feel sad?

this post, is blogged whn im in tears. but do you care ?

not anymore, after those harsh words i've said to you.

i'm sorry, evrything's my fault. and it'll always stay this way.

i'm a huge fault to begin with.





a fake smile, hides a million tears.

It's raining heavily outside now , while im crying inside . my heart's lyk the weather outside now, dark and cold. words , just words could hurt my heart so badly. they're silent, yet deadly.

i took this time off to think, what do i really want? what matters the most to me now? is him really that important to me? issit worth it to put my best and all for him? im exchanging my best for the worst. issit all worthwhile?

i don know.. i really dont. why am i always the one trying my best, while he's the one to push me away. why do you always hav to hurt me so? i never asked for much, all i asked for is happiness. issit a mistake to fall in love with him?

i'm so emotionally tired.. so tired i cant think anymore.. so tired i dont know wad shd i do anymore.. so tired i just feel lyk giving everything up and go back to square one. go back to what i'm lyk in the past. issit all worth?

im sorry but i love you, stop pushing me away.