Pics.
I wonder when will i hav the time & mood to update my blog wit peeeektures and of cos update on the msia trip which i went wit my family & dar during my holidays frm 5~9apr. gosh. tht's like ages ago le can ...

guess i gna update on it soon , arbo i'll kip procrastinate till i drop the idea of updating le. im that lazy, yes. and of cos, my mood's veri unstable lately which is mainly one of the cause of me having no mood to update bout happy stuffs. =\

Moodless.
hmm. jus a random update since i've nothing better to do. (well actually i've my c-programming stuffs to do and catch up on. but whatever , i've no mood for those shit)

went stomp and saw 2 articles which is quite sweet. aha! probably cos im feeling down, therefore i find them sweet? idk , mayb in your opinion they aren't sweet? well , whatever .

Article 1
this is abt this china man whu married his dead girlfiend (now his wife). i find it sweet but quite sad oso la .. as in , the bride passed away like 8 days before the marriage cos of some house break in. she was murdered by those thieves, evil thieves D: ... well , anw it's in some part of china . but tht's really one nice china man! hahaha!

Article 2
nxt is this .. it's in singapore! rawhs. this guy whu proposed to his girlfriend at dhoby ghaut's bus stop using an ad! altho it might be quite embarrassing , but i find tht it's oso verii sweet at the same time luhs ... ah, but manii commented tht it's kinda cheapo and stoopid? oh well. it's the thought tht counts , better than having no proposal at all !

sian .. now you know how moody i am riaos .. went to read all this kind of stoopid articles. hmm , also another article bout this singapore 18 years old gal who suicided due to some r/s probs. the webpage's in chinese. and wow , i can actually kindof understand ok .. means my chinese improved le yey. well , verii sad story too . one of her shoutout on whatever website was “我会永远消失” -- after tht the last shoutout before she jumped off the building was “我们开始‘结束’吧，我要向永远问好。”

haiz ... i read ler oso feel for her . =( hopefully she'll be a happier gal wit no worries on the other side! =)

ehhh .. after tht i went youtube to search for yoga videos . OK , I KNOW IM VERY LAME. WHATEVER OK . =(

denn .. i surfed google and very sua-ku de me just realised tht there's actually a vodka vanilla flavoured de .. YESS ... very interesting .. but comments said tht it ain't as nice , but the website say it's nice . shit la , believe who? of cos ppl's comments ! HAHAHAHA . but den ... im tempted to try. jialat , shdn't have checked for ths kind of crap. ahh .. too down le. duno wad to do =(



look like some verii delicious fruit juices ? very guud. now , someone better go prepare those for me ! HAHAHAHA. im not posting the ingredients n steps! cos the images looks sooo nice to me. mmm yumyumyum. =D

im craving for those craps now. haiz ... what to do. feeling so screwed up ... ='(

bye. very random post to show tht im still alive.

Way beyond hurt.
evryday you broke her heart.
little by little you tore it apart.
how can you care so little?
could you truly not care at all?

she feels alone.
sitting down and talking to the wall about hurt and life.
they must hate how she can never stop on tht topic.
:(

but no-one likes her.
becos if it's true tht they say about how
"if you dunlike yurself , no-one else will"
and thats why its her fault becos she hates herself.
way too much.
:(

all that's left in her is emptiness.

she hates how the people always glances at her.
the sniggers and whispers.
hating the rumours that are completely false.
it's like as though she's a criminal or something.

she hates herself for caring so much of what people thinks of her.
but most of all, she hates that she cares way too much of what you tink of her too.
at the end of the day, she came back to hating herself.
hating herself for caring so much. (when she can choose not to)

lastly.

she hates missing and caring so much for someone who doesn't even care much.
someone who always breaks her heart.
someone who always do things to let her down.
yet, she realised that, there's nothing she can do bout it.
be it an outside affair behind her back or putting friends in top priority or him lying to her.
SHE JUST CAN'T DO ANYTHING BOUT IT .... but cry silently ...

you know, she hates crying?
but you just have to be the one who always make her cry alone.
why must you do so ..
:'(

but yet after all this heartbreaks you've did to her ..
she just knows that she can't hate you ..
no matter how many times she says she hates you , she just can't seem to hate you at all.
she's nothing but just a weak girl with a weak heart.
:(

till today, she's still wondering if anyone can truly understands
and someone she can share her woes to?
'cos, even her bestie dun seem to understand her anymore...
she's not a girl who likes making mountain out of a molehill ,
yet her bestie said that of her. yes, harsh as it can be.
but she knows it's for her own good.

but she's still feeling unhappy. cos she came to realise that, she can't share her woes to her bestie anymore ...
all she can share to are those walls around her .
sometimes she really wish the walls can answer her and cheer her up
:(

but well .. i guess this is life for her. a very sad one.
there's nothing she can do bout it.
she can't help it. 'cos she's been living in this kind of life for years already.
nobody likes her. nobody loves her.
basically it all started off with her hating herself.

after saying so much, ended up it's still her fault.

:'(

all she wann is happiness. but i guess she can just drop that idea already.
nobody's able to give her happiness. nobody can share happiness with her.
she's all by herself. be it when she's happy or sad.
she'll still be alone.

all she can do now is, cry alone at home on a sadday(sunday) where everyone can have fun outside. she's alrdy cried alone at home and wasted a shatterday , now she wasted yet another sadday(sunday).

:(

what an emo girl she is. yet nobody wans to help her cos she can't even help herself. sighz.

I'm a naive girl.
Just when i thought i've built back the lost feelings for you, you just have to shatter EVRY single bit of it.

thanks alot...

now i think tht wad you said really makes sense. we shdn't even be together at all, just like wad you told me last sunday.

i know ever since after tht day , you've been trying VERY hard to wanting to break apart once and for all . it's okay .. save the effort .. you can just tell me the same thing and break my heart all over again . i'm prepared , to suffer yet another heartbreak by you. and i hope it'll be the last heartbreaking experience i'll hafta go thru yupz .. :)

now i can't help but totally agree with evrything you commented about us and of cos the things you always criticizes about me .

and, like i said before, if there's once, there'll be a second time. it's just a matter of time.

and somehow, i can feel that the time is near.

thanks for always having to break my heart. :)

you can have the honour of having the award of breaking my heart the most amount of times ! and also the award of making me sad the most amount of times !

yet , im still loving you as much.

how stoopid can i be ? :')

Life.
God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain,

But he did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way.


:)


God's promises are like the stars; the darker the night the brigher they shine.

Goodbye.

When'll things come to a/an stop/end ?
tired to care anymore.



thinking back. you used to always say you would gimme a call. you said you will call me. believed your words. always waiting like a fool without fail , just for your call. spending my whole time beside a phone that never rang , just to let myself feel disappointed and knowing my insignificance in your life. why do you hav to lie, just to keep me happy for that few moment? why can't you ever honour the words you promised / said .

all i need was a call that never came.

:( :( :(
I realised tht spamming twitter ain't a good idea. ahh. been having this super weird & bad habit of spamming my twitter when im feeling frustrated, down, irritated, sad, confused, whatever . as long im not feeling myself , i spams like no tomorrow and irritate the hell outta evryone. :(

i hate school. i hate my class of suckers. :(

i dislike my teachers. i hate the journey to school. i dunhave anymore gudfriends tht'll stand by me at school. im sucha loser. nobody likes me, everyone hates me. tht last sentense is one verrryyy veryy owning emo sentense. hah! :(

nothing i type now can be positive sia. why why why. tell me why? idk. im losing myself. sheesh.

i wann sony vaio E-series lappy. so chio and cute. but sony products sucks. and i dunwan sucky products! :(

i wann to skip school tomorrow. i dun wanna go class. i hate my class. sobs/ :'(


:(



i've just let free my emo innerself. hehe.

Hypocrites.
today is the start of another school year. sucks like hell. in a class packed wit weirdos & of cos , a weird teacher.

saw quite some hypocrite(s) today. uhhuh, according to me they seem lyk hypocrites. but their true intentions are left unknown. nobody knows except for they themselves. dunwan talk to me / ignore me , nevermind. i can accept that. but what's wit those random glaring and diao-ing at me ? ridiculous k . according to my almost failed memory, i have no recollections of me offending you. now, tell me in wad way did i offend you ? the sight of me? tsk!

sad to say , the sight of you makes me sick too. i guess? :)

how i hateeeee those people whu hates ppl for no particular reason and not telling the person why too. it's like , yesterday we're gud frens , the next day we're enemies/strangers. ridiculous much !

oh , and if you're going around telling stoopid tales bout me to evryone , grow up & get a life please. they can choose to believe you by all means. as long i know my conscience's clear , evrything shd be alright i guess . :)

i guess evrything's gotta do wit my screwed up personality. people hates me , people dislikes me . yet they dun wanna tell me why & some even continue being oh-so-nicey-but-yet-so-fake towards me. how fucked up can they be ? :\

humans, i can never understand them. not even myself.