love is a dream.
tell me you're not ignoring me .
tell me you're not avoiding me.
tell me you're not leaving me alone.
tell me you'll still be by my side.
tell me you still love me.
tell me you still miss me.




tell me ...... i'll be fine without you ...
tell me ...... i'll be okay without you by my side ....
tell me ...... i'll still live on ....
tell me ...... i must stay strong ....
tell me ...... i cannot cry every moment anymore .....
tell me ...... i shouldn't torture myself ......
tell me ...... i should not think so much ......
tell me ...... i should cheer up .....
tell me ...... everything is a dream .....
tell me ...... to wake up now ....
tell me ...... you love me ....





tell you ..... that i am missing you every moment when you're gone....
tell you ..... that i still love you .....
tell you ..... that i cant bear to let you go ......
tell you ..... that you'll be my last ......
tell you ..... that i hope you'll care for me .....
tell you ..... that i wan your attention .....
tell you ..... that i dunwan you to ignore me ......
tell you ..... that i'm feeeling very hurt and down ......
tell you ..... that i hope you'll show concern for me ......
tell you ..... that i really miss you .....




='(


today ... i build up my courage and ...
i ... wanted to call you tonight ....
but you're asleep ... i don't wanna be a nuisance ...
(i don't tink you'll pick my call too.....)
tell me should i give up on you ....?
should i stop pestering you ....?

maybe i should ......
i'm nothing but an irritant to you .....

i'm sorry my dear .... but i still love you ..... i cant bear to leave you .... i cant bear to give up .....

but i tink you hope i'll move on right .... i tink you dun lyk me to disturb you too ..... so i'll do everything for your sake ..... altho i dun really wan to .....

i still love you.


time will heal me ..... i really hope .....

='(

heartbreaks.
I'm lying by myself.
The silence seems to swell.
Someday this all will change.
It's just a temporary pain.




do you understand the feelings of a heartbrokened gal?
do you know how it feels like to be left alone?


it was all a dream.
goodbye dreams.

dreams,
altho you broke my heart so , but i hope to continue living in my dreams.
goodbye world.




wake me up. i've lost myself.

dam cool article i just read.


Texting is a shitty way to communicate.

I have this friend who uses the expression "No, thank you," in a sarcastic way. It means, "I'd rather be shot in the face." He puts a little ironic lilt on the last two words that lets you know. You ask, "Want to go see that new Rob Schneider movie?" And, he'll say, "No, thank you."

So one day we had this exchange via text:

Me: "Hey, do you want me to bring over that leftover chili I made?"

Him: "No, thank you"
That pissed me off. I'm proud of my chili. It takes four days to make it. I grind up the dried peppers myself; the meat is expensive, hand-tortured veal. And, now my offer to give him some is dismissed with his bitchy catchphrase?

I didn't speak to him for six months. He sent me a letter, I mailed it back, unread, with a dead rat packed inside.

It was my wife who finally ran into him and realized that the "No, thank you" he replied with was not meant to be sarcastic, but was a literal, "No, but thank you for offering." He had no room in his freezer, it turns out.

So did we really need a study to tell us that more than 40 percent of what you say in an e-mail is misunderstood? Well, they did one anyway.

How many of your friends have you only spoken with online? If 40 percent of your personality has gotten lost in the text transition, do these people even really know you? The people who dislike you via text, on message boards or chatrooms or whatever, is it because you're really incompatible? Or, is it because of the misunderstood 40 percent? And, what about the ones who like you?

Many of us try to make up that difference in sheer numbers, piling up six dozen friends on MySpace. But here's the problem ...

Online company only makes us lonelier.


When someone speaks to you face-to-face, what percentage of the meaning is actually in the words, as opposed to the body language and tone of voice? Take a guess.

It's 7 percent. The other 93 percent is nonverbal, according to studies.

Most of our humor is sarcasm, and sarcasm is just mismatching the words with the tone.



life of mr bear.

i neeed a new diary .... =(

not an online onee .. something that can keep my feelings from being known ~ something that only i myself know ..



i'm feeling miserable. very miserable.

sometimes , i really wonder ... what if i really don't exist anymore ? does it make any difference to you ? i think it doesn't makes any difference ... maybe you'll be more than happy that i'm gone .. for i'm not significant enough to be of importance in your life .


i , don't deserve to live.

but , i can't help it . i just hafta continue living a life of misery , till someday , something takes me away .


or , till someday , somebody thinks my life's an importance and gimme a gud reason to live on .



can i dance my way into happiness ? can i not care for anyone anymore ?

my dar loves me alot. & i love my dar alot too ♥. =)

i know at times , things are really my fault. but sometimes it's not all only me. it's about us .

i hope i can be a happie gal , a gal whu'll be treated wit care and love and not neglected .. i hope he'll do things that'll involve me too .. and think for me feelings .. and i'll do the same back for him too ..

i hope he'll be honest towards me .. and share everything wit me .. i hope to be the one to hear his problems and help him .. =(


i'll stay strong ...


- i still love you alot my dar .. -

i said i wun text him , but i just replied him .. guess it's really hard to let go. but i'll still try my best to. i'll tell myself not to touch my fone. or mayb i should just switch off my fone for gud ..?

but i dun wana switch off my fone , cos i wana knw , do i still mean anything to him? for after today , i must give up already ..

i'll stay strong .. and keep my promise .

guess it's time to pack everything up and put them into the store. for he doesn't care no more. i'm nothing to him from this instant on. all he cares is for himself & his frens. me ? i'm just an extra being.

storing evrything tht's got to do with him tomorrow. i've no mood to do any packing up today.

and bitches , you may hav him , for i dun care anymore. im sick and tired of hogging onto him soo tightly for no reason . he doesn't even care bout my existance.

maybe i shd just stop texting him , and let him continue his happy life. for his life without me , is a way more colourful one.

i'm nothing but a spoiler. :')