hello.hello! its been ages since i last updated my blog, you can actually call it a dead blog! but well, why am i updating today? cos im bored, yes, bored. the reason why i hvn been updating's basically cos i haven been switching on my comp.... ah okay i shall be honest, it's actually that im just too lazy to and cos there's barely anyone but spirits reading my blog!
hmmm, im typing all this using my phone now, and it's kinda tiring to type huge chunk of words! and of cos there wun be any pictures as it's almost impossible for me to add it in! (plus i have to upload them to the image sharing web first before i could upload here, blah troublesome) and hopefully my phone doesnt dies on me as im gonna make this a kinda lengthy post! (maybe!)
okay, so basically i just wan whoever who's still reading this to know that, i wun be updating my blog anytime soon! but im still gonna leave my blog here! hahaha. oh and, i'll frequent my twitter more often as it's easier and faster, beats having to type huge chunks each time i update this blog. and my language's deproving... like tremendously. so i dun wna type like billions of words and have like practically 70% of it being grammatically wrong. and not to mention my limited vocab. (im not gonna brush up on them, im just too lazy to) so pardon me if there's any super funny mistake i made! (esp my grammar, it's really terrible)
um, so yeah, nothing much happened recently. okay, i hate to admit but actually alot happened. like how my 19th bday was ruined n screwed up, how my little pets changed my life, how i've been a hypocrite towards someone in my class, how i mugged like a crazy gal for exams and the list goes on! so yea, regarding my previous bday, it was horrible. i dun even wna imagine having to celebrate my bday this year! wad a terrible experience, really i swear. you wouldnt wan to be me back then! it really gives me phobia towards those birthdays' thingy and stuffs, even till now, that horrible feeling is still haunting and lingering within me. and each time i thinks about it, it just makes me have myraid of feelings! cant be helped. it was too much of a hurtful experience to me. and it took me so soooo long to have settled down my emotions and be able to talk about it. you know how hard it is to speak of certain things that happen in life, be it family or frens.
so dear fren of mine (you-know-who-you-are) just to let u know, i really miss you alot, really alot, i think of you practically evrytime but too bad im freaking afraid of u now, yes freaking afraid. im soooo dam afraid you'll ruin yet another day of mine and leave a huge scar on me. honestly speaking, you've changed soo much after getting to knw ur current bf and after attending church. it's gud for a reason and bad for another. your attitude towards me plummeted, it's like, ever since you've got him, im no longer needed. yes, im jealous, you bet! i mean like, who wouldnt be jealous if your bestfren disregard you as a fren after having a bf ? thats not the way to do things. and i know you're always complaining i've changed for the worst, yes i admit that i dun treat u as gud as your bf treats you, but im not any worse off ! (well at least thats how i felt, think abt the times whr our schmates ostracized and made fun of you, did i leave you? no i didnt leave you alone and run off, im still always thr for you, the times i helped u cover up and lie for you to certain ppl, and the times im always treating you to stuffs you like (no biggie to you i guess), going out to hav supper at mac's with you cos you were hungry, having fun shopping tgt, do you still rmb?) i just felt that u have to sort out ur frens and stuffs. u can have millions of frens, but a true fren is a treasure. the one who u can practically share every shits to! (i know u've church frens to replace me for this role, so i guess im off now)
and i know how dam cocky i sounded there, but really, its up to you to decide which frens you want, and not. im saying all this not for the sake of reconciling our frenship but for the sake of letting this shit go, yes let this shit fuck off my life completely. now i've said almost all that i wanted to say about this issue, i felt a huge load off my mind, literally! you know it's been a major stress issue to me thinking about how much i hated you and all. so yea, here i am to stop all this childish hating shit. i've grown to learn how to let go. and it's been a fun hell of a great time for having known you for abt 7 years. and you've been a great fren to me when i was in high school. so yea, thanks for being my great true fren back then! i've treasured you and im done treasuring you i guess. time to let go of the hatred i've held for months now! oh and happy belated bday. i din forget. i just dun wna say it to you, you shd knw the reason! cos i hated you so dam much for making me cry on my bday that i dun wna care bout bdays anymore. ohwell. enough said, time to move on.
so yups, i've like .... 20 hammies and 1 guinea pig with me now! sold off most of my hammies, if not i would've like 30 over hammies! it all started off with my dear buying 2 cute baby robos for me! and den i received another 2 cuties (puyo & piyo) as my bday gift! (im treasuring them and loving them very much now) and then, they gave me loads of offsprings! real cute. and from den i've to dedicate part of my time to taking care and playing with them. its tiring and gets tedious at times, but my love for animals will never change! i can even miss my dearest puyo when im out! i miss cuddling her on my cheeks ! haha. yes, they're super adorable! most of them hav got names! (yups, xcept some) and my super naughty guinea pig, who's name's sugar, is a super defiant gal who wun ever listen to me! well, at least she still recognises me when it's time for food. this shows how greedy she is! i've thought of finding a companion for her, but eventually gave that thought up as i guess i cant afford to fork out anymore time to play with them. or rather, im jus sad to part with my money! haha, cos im kindof cash-strapped now. yes, pathetic as it sounds. i'll hafta get her a bigger cage if she's got a companion! and soon, my house will turn into a mini-zoo! (if this goes on!) i've even thought of having cats! but im jus afraid cats might toy with my hammies, urghhs. and for some reason, i just cant stand dogs. and i hope ferrets are allowed in singapore! they're super cute creatures! and not forgetting to mention chincillas! chincillas cost a bomb, no way i could afford it, for now. guess i wun go in details abt how cute and cuddly my little pets are! (this post will never end if i goes on describing them)
so next up, my school life! (shit, my phone's battery running out! drained like 15% till this point. its a battery-sucker phone, everyone knows that i guess.) school's been dam awesome and all to me! altho there's been a series of hypocritical stuffs that happened unto me. but fret not, cos i know i've frens who're true to me! yesyes, im sure they know who they are! haha. but it's kinda sad that we've to part and go our seperate ways now.. but im really happy for them to be able to get the choice they wanted! hard work paid off! oh, about me... i got my first choice and scored pretty decent grades, but im still confused on wad i want! guess im being mindfucked by too many ppl. ahh, time to stick to my own choice, settle on it and gogogo! i know i've been like a sloth who just slacks off and practically not do anything bout exams xcept to sleep thru it! but it's a whole different situation this time! i slogged like mad, seriously! i studied and mugged like some mad gal. slept for 2hrs each day just to mug for the next day! but ah well, i din get the grades that i was expecting for! but hey, it's still good! not too far off.
so now, i've finally moved on to the next chapter of my life! (after being stucked for 3years) and its time to strive hard and go for it! nothing's gonna hinder me frm reaching my goal this time i hope! hmm now, what else did i say i'll update on? ah, cant rmb. so guess i'll stop here for now! (and who knows when's the next update gna be on?) haha! oh and my apologies for if you've been straining your eyes just to finish reading my essay. (this post is long enough to be an essay i guess!) and i know the font colour of my blog's dam contrasting and sucks to read it, but ah well, im too lazy to change the whatever blog skin thingy alrdy, just gna stay with this! and guess what, can you actually believe i took like 1h30m or so just to type this essay! and how sore my hand feels now as im lying down and typing this! hah!
uhm, so ppl who wana be the first to catch my latest updates gonna stalk my twitter then! (points to the right column of my blog layout) look for my twitter there! or just search 'MisakiYann' at twitter! (y) it's gonna be awesome. nyahaha!
okay, tata for now. (L)
p.s: oh, forgot to mention that i love my dardar alot ! hahaha, if not for him, i would have become some depression kid now! gahaha, much loves my hunnybun. ♥
