Nightmare.
It's hard to go on without a heart .

Today was a fairytale.
Hi.

Red skies.
the sky's responding to my feelings. the red sky.

i just dun wanna sleep. a night that's been forgotton.

i was wrong when i thought that i was certain of my feelings.

i was wrong when i'm too full of myself.

i was wrong when i thought i could trust you again.

i was wrong when i thought you'd listen to me.

i'm always wrong, no matter what i do . :')

everything i do & say , just makes ppl's life more miserable than ever.
can i stop caring for people from this instant on? :')

i just feel there's no need for me to care anymore.

cos , i was wrong to care for you too.



people badmouthing me everywhere. no matter wad i do , be it right or wrong , i get nothing but scoldings.

getting hated & being a topic tht's been gossiped at.

just tell me, what wrong did i do to deserve all these shits.




Sadness knows how to run,
run away from all the problems.

Sadness knows how to cry,
when times get tough.

Sadness knows to swim,
away from the things that upset it.

Sadness knows how to watch,
others being happy.

Sadness knows how to hide,
from people who tries to make it happy.

Sadness knows how to be alone,
when it just wants to be by itself.

Sadness knows how to disappear,
but it hardly does.

Sadness knows how to ignore,
the people who tries to change it.

But Sadness doesn't know how to escape,
from this crude world that's making it grow.

When sadness grows,
it surrounds people like air & takes away their sanity.

Sadness continues to flow,
like the ocean into the sea.

Smile .
HAPPIE VALENTINES' & CNY TO EVRYONE . (=

may evryone be blessed in anything they do ~ wishing evryone the best.

& to all couples , continue staying sweet and lovely tgt.

have a wonderful day ahead.










my dar. thanks for evrything you did just for me . thanks for the lovely surprise! touched by the things you do & the words you said to me . sorry for doubting you time and time again ..

lets continue walking down this path tgt , hand in hand. and , i'll be there for you , just like how you're always there for me too. may we've more wonderful sweet moments ahead of us .

altho the trust's been broken , but i'll try my best to mend it back . i'll try my best and give my all to love you even more .

happie valentine's day my love ♥ .

i love you baby . i really do .

& once again , im sorry , gomenasai ...

Whatever,
Hi. think i'm shutting down this blog soon.

due to SOMEONE being unhappy with the stuffs i post.

but then again, it's MY blog. nobody ask you to read. not happie den dun read ? ain't forcing no-one to read . issit wrong to post your feelings & thoughts on a personal blog ? i wonder .

well , if you tell me it's wrong, i'll shut my blog immediately at this instant. and no more blogging for me. no more. i blog to keep myself happie, yet to cause unhappiness among others.

maybe i shd spare a thought for YOU . so , just so maybe i'll just delete it. happie now ? satisfied ? you've gotten wad you wan. my blog to be down and never up again.


fuck it. even blogging is wrong now. tsk. what's right in this world? just fucking tell me.

Cynical.
Nothing matters, because nothings' real.
And the fact is based on how we all feel.

Mind's like a radio with false forecast ,
There's words on his lips but , he's keeping silent.
There's a storm raging inside of him but , he keeps quiet.
Things are going wrong but , no one knows.

Apologies never seem to tie into a perfect ribbon.
They get knotted & mangled, messed up & tangled.
Till the extent we no longer see their origins anymore.

What's more sad than all these false presumptions ?
They just never stop coming back.

I'm lost in my mind , a mesmerizing maze in which i find no way out.
All the non-existing dreams making me numb.
I'm sick of it , dreams that silently devour your sanity.

Turn away, don't look at me.
Forget about the tears you see.
Pretend that i'm okay,
That's how i live each day.
Don't say a word.
I only want to be alone,
I don't want my sorrow to be shown.
Walk away, don't come close.
Not telling the secrets kept within.
And please don't ask me why,
When i'm telling you goodbye.


And, don't ask me what's with this post.
It's a compilation of my feelings.
Just a simpler way of expressing.

Ain't emo , just words from the heart.


Lastly, fat.

I'm fat, we all know it's true.
The scale doesn't lie to me.
Via your constant reminders ,
I'm working hard , by digging my own grave.

The weight just keeps adding on , inch by inch the clothes get tighter.
Going for larger sizes , & constantly being called ugly.
Looking into the mirror , hating what's being reflected.
I'm fat & ugly as can be.

Starve to death , and i'll be slim
Even if it's on my last breath.
Is it worth it ?

Starve. Starve. Starve.
Starve away the feelings i've lost.
Just so i could achieve the things i wish i could have.
You people , just too ignorant to understand the hell i'm going through.

Often being called fat,
It suited her the best.
Day by day , she's brought closer to living hell.
The word that affected her so.

Fat. Fat. Fat.
And the words continue echoing in my head ,
my own mind now insulting me.
Overweight & clumsy , no one wants me around.





Stfu. I ain't needing any comments no more. fuck it.
No comments needed for this post. kthxbai.



i wish he would just hold me & love me for who i am.
it's not happening.

Sad Reality.
Isn't it sad ,

When people you thought you were closest to
Starts to fade away ?

When the people you know
Became people you knew ?

How you love someone so much
But you wonder if he still love you ?

How you used to talk to someone non-stop
Now that's left is silence ?

When someone and you had actually understood each other
And now you barely know them at all ?

And how now there's those awkward times
When you sat next to each other without saying a word ?

It's sad how times change.