Morbidity.
Morbid morbid morbid. such a beautiful word.

Till this date, i still believe everything happens for a reason , or it just comes naturally. sad reality that's hard to swallow , just face it. i'm prone to it , known for it. but , wad can i do bout it? nothing.

Hate? is a strong word , we all know this to be true. Hatred? a man made disease . it may not kill you , but i'll tell you, it could .

i'm selfish , egotistical at times , sociopathic , have a fucked up attitude , but , did i ask you to like those fucked-up traits of mine ? or rather , did i ask you to like me ? no , i absolutely din . there's no need to force yourself to accept someone whu you dislike. seriously .

when things happen , it's ALWAYS my fault. yes , i admit it's my fault. but , do you have to go to the extend of bringing everything out to showcase to others that it's my fault ? even if you din put it straight-forwardly , but mind you , people ain't stupid . everyone understands . well anyway, should i thank you ? for giving me the honour to be labelled as a fault whenever prob arises & the main cause of you being EMO ?! . fuck yea , thanks ... ALOT . (: now i really feel damn fucking proud of my actions . and that's the fucking reason why i HATE going out with you together with your frens .

you always ask me not to care bout wad others say , oh purlease ! if it wasn't for you broadcasting everything out like a telecaster , people wouldn't badmouth me already. so look , i never said im ashamedd of my actions or whatever , but the things you said and do , really really doesn't match up. thanks for always making things worse for me , so i love doing that in return for you too ^-^

sad to say , i've a vengeful soul. but i find no wrong with me having a vengeful soul though. so mayb i should try broadcasting every single thing bout YOU to my frens too ! seems fun ? and at the same time i can disgrace you to the max and let my frens hav the bad view of you . why not ?! seems like a great deal.

but no , i wouldn't do that basically cos i still have tht bit of conscience left in me . if i fucking dun care at all , i'll prolly go around telling tall tales bout YOU . and i'll bring your name down to the lowest level , & i'll make sure my frens dislike you . oh wait , i just remembered you always telling me not to care bout what others say ? so i assume you dun care too ? oh well , *roll eyes* /

is that a threat on my part ? haha, no. that's not a threat , not at all ! ^-^

so now people will come pointing fingers at me blaming me for the cause of you being emo . {and oh purlease! dun tink you're the only one feeling upset now . so you dunnid all the sympathy. so quit trying to act as though you've been bullied badly by me or whatever to the extend you wann people to come confront me . pitiful eh? how sad can that be . } that's great , just too great . and people blame me for not ALLOWING you to go out wit your FRENS . fuck that k . since when did i lock you up like a dog ? so now you're giving people the impression that i'm treating you like a dog. woo , great . i'm satisfied now. i'm happie with the things you instilled onto people bout me . I REALLY AM . read my mood . I'M FUCKING HAPPIE NOW . _l_

so maybe i should just erase everything bout this r/s . erase your existence together with the memories. memories ? i dun need that anymore i guess . since everyone on your side's already hating me , and one main thing bout me is i hate being HATED by people for the things that's NOT ENTIRELY TRUE _l_ . AND YES , IT'S ALL THANKS TO YOU MISTER .

should i start afresh ? i really wonder. mayb i should . cos i know , you're urging for this to end sooner , so you can start a new one too . (: i can tell by the way you do certain things , it's an assumption . but i'm quite positive bout it too . you just wan it to end sooner , to the extend you just have to taint my name before erasing everything . great , great , great . i love your character . fucking good . and come to think of it , it's the first time you ever typed vulgarities to me . that's a sign , i get it . so i guess things are going to end afterall since you already asked me to fuck off .

bullshit to everything ! you and all your talk of meaning everything you say ? especially to the ones you love and doing anything for the ones you love. So tell me , how's that work ? because apparently the ONLY ONE YOU LOVE IS YOURSELF !

That's it. i've said my piece.

i'm still fucking happie. "happie" very.

unhappy wit anything i said ? too bad , cos these are wad's on my mind now . and this is my blog , i blog wad i like . i blog my feelings straight-forwardly. i dun say things indirectly like you always do . (:


i'm a liar. i'm trapped within my own lies.