Sad.
i've no rights to feel sad at all. now i've even lost the rights of feeling sad. what rights do i hav left ?

nothing.

nobody to help , nobody to listen to my shit.


sorry but, im giving up.

bf, family, frens... none matters to me anymore. cos, they'll all walk out of my life eventually.

what i've left now is myself. well , at least for now i haven lose myself.


yes, i'll have to face the consequences bravely and not always crying and saying i've such a pitiful life. i can't always be crying and complaining tht no one's thr for me (but seriously speaking, really no one's here for me. not even my parents help me)

cos , im too much of a bad gal to begin with. sorry everyone. and, most importantly, sorry to my beloved & myself. i've let myself and you down again.


i hope the day when all my miseries will end, comes soon. i dun wanna cry anymore. cos soon , soon i'll not have rights to cry anymore.

soon,

i've no rights to do anymore things.


found this interesting song:

twinkle twinkle falling tears,
cutting will release my fears,

careful blood will pour out fast,
stain the years that now have passed,

twinkle twinkle falling tears,
scars will tattoo all my years.


dam emo , but i like.


bad-night. no more goodnights for me.